My last post was quite a long while ago. I had not done well with Project 200. To be honest, I felt embarrassed, even ashamed, about what I saw as yet another failure. So I stop writing. As simple as that. Over the months, I had to urge to write but didn’t feel safe doing so. Some would say: “Well you can write for yourself. You don’t have to blog and share everything with the world.” Although this is true, writing for myself never had the same impact or attraction to me. For some reasons, it is when I write to share with you that it moves me. I often find myself going deeper when I’m writing on here. It is like things get clearer as each words land. So I have missed sharing with you what is going on in my thoughts, in my life, in my heart. So here I am, putting words down.
Project 200 was short lived. I had lost of bit of weight but eventually resumed my food addiction relationship. So I found myself in its grasp once again and once again, very hopeless.
At the end of November, a Facebook friend shared about her health and weight loss transformation through intermittent fasting. I might have heard about intermittent fasting before that day, I’m not sure. On that day, though, it had a great impact on me. On December 2nd, I started intermittent fasting myself. I started with 16:8 (fasting for 16 hours and eating within an eight-hour window). Quickly, I naturally went to 18:6. I mostly ate my food between noon and 6 pm. The unbelievable thing is that I went from binging every evening to not eating at all after 6 pm and not having any cravings or urges at all. For the first time in a very long time, I felt hope. I use an app which I have set for a daily 16-hour fast. No matter what I have to fast at least 16 hours a day. That is the goal I have set for myself. Now, there are days that I fast for 21 hours and some that are closer to 16 hours. I love the flexibility that this affords me. If I have a social event that I need to eat outside of my normal eating hours, I just shift things around. There’s been a hand full of days where I fell short of my daily goal but I’m not letting that get me down.
I’ve embarked on this lifestyle over five months ago. I can’t say that it is as easy as it was for the first four months. But it is still the best thing for me. I’m paying attention to what is going on in my body now. I know that some foods such as simple carbs bring about cravings. I always thought that my food addiction was an emotional issue. I now know that this is only part of the equation. I now know that it is also a hormonal imbalance that is triggered by certain foods. In some ways, I eat differently than I used to. I eat much more fat dense foods such as nuts and cheese than I used and I have cut down on carbs significantly. It has been a very interesting few months. As I mentioned, I have a lot of hope now. I’m getting stronger emotionally and physically. I have lost 38 lbs. I’ve reduced the inflammation in my body. My digestion is better and the pain in my liver area is non-existent most days. So much energy has been freed by not being caught in the grasp of the food addiction. I’m so grateful for that! So grateful!
My focus is no longer on the number of pounds I want to lose. My focus is now on being strong and healthy of body and also of mind. This is the journey I’m on now. It’s an all-encompassing journey and I’ll be sure to share more about this journey with you. It is a fascinating one.
P.S. What do you think of the new decor on here? I thought I would refresh things a bit 🙂