October 2nd, 2017… the second day of a brand new month! I love new beginnings and a new month can certainly be looked at as a new beginning.
I remember when I was a child being all excited at the beginning of the school year. I had brand new notebooks with not a crease or a mark in them. Every year I was so intent on keeping these notebooks looking new all year round. So I would make sure that my writing was tidy and clean. I would apply myself so intently. Days would go by and my resolve would diminish and in no time, my notebooks were a mess. At least to my eyes. Then I would hate these ‘messy and dirty’ notebooks. I wanted new ones. Sometimes I did but mostly I didn’t of course.
Many, many, many years later, I still feel this way about new beginnings. I have such great intentions about things. Things like losing weight, exercising, art projects, classes, etc. Then I mess it up, or so I judge it as such. Then I want to start over again. Therefore my love for new beginnings.
Life isn’t a do-over though. We progress through our lives, growing, learning, becoming more of who we really are. Life isn’t like a ‘messy’ notebook that we get to throw away when it is no longer to our liking and then replaced with a new one. Life is more like a beloved journal that we carry with us at all time, with its well-worn pages and creases, filled with pen scratches and smears of days past; a journal that has become more and more cherished as days accumulates within its spine and our soul is laid bare within its pages; a journal, which the very thought of losing, bring deep sorrow to our heart. No, life is definitely not a do-over. Nor would I want it to be!
So instead of hoping for a do-over on this month I thought of doing a bit of review for September and look at what I would like to accomplish during this new month. The intention behind this exercise is to cultivate an attitude of celebrating and learning from my experiences and to set some gentle guidance for the upcoming month.
SEPTEMBER achievements and learnings
- I have settled a bit more into retirement. This has been my first full month as a retiree. Hoot! Hoot! I love it! I love that my time is mostly my own now to do with as I pleased. I find that I have to give myself more structure and this calls for discipline which isn’t exactly my strong suit.
- I have experienced the benefits of meditation. I knew, intellectually, that meditation had great benefits. However, I had not had the experience of that. Now I do. I have meditated maybe 20 mornings this last month from 14 minutes to 30 minutes at a time. It is very clear to me that it really calms my anxiety down. This is an amazing awareness as anxiety is what drives my bouts of self-destructive behaviour.
- I birthed Emergessence and started blogging regularly. I joined Blog Along with Effy which was very helpful in getting me to blog. I didn’t blog everyday but I blogged more than I ever did. So that is a success!
- I have learned about food fermentation and have my second batch fermenting right now and we’ll get to taste it later today. I’ll be sharing more about this in a future post.
- I have returned to an old love of mine: website design. I’m currently re-designing a website for a friend and have two other upcoming designs. I’m learning new skills as the tools I used in the past have been replaced with new tools.
- I have binged ate probably less than what I can count on one hand. This is quite an achievement since I had been binge eating most nights for quite a while. Consequently, I have lost 2.6 lbs.
- I’ve had art and lunch dates with friends and had some friends over a couple of times for dinner at our place. I tend to really like being on my own, and hubby too, so I’m doing my bit in ensuring that I fill my/our social well.
- I intend to lose a minimum of 5 lbs. I really want to lose weight so that I can get around more freely when Spring rolls around. This means that I have to pay attention to the quality and amount of food I eat.
- I intend to blog everyday this month. This is quite a stretch for me but I think I can do this. I’ll certainly give it my best shot!
- I intend on meditating every day for a minimum of 15 minutes each day.
- I intend on moving my body more. I tend to be quite sedentary and that isn’t good for my health.
- I intend to get back to a regular arting practice. I have not made this a priority and it needs to be as it is part of my overall wellbeing.
- I intend of furthering my web design and development skills.
To new beginnings and beloved well-worn journals!