A Wish List to the Universe

In my last post, I shared about my BIG want: To journey back home to the core of who I am and ground myself there. Today I thought it would be a good idea to start on a list of practical day-to-day wants. A kind of wish list to the Universe. So here goes:

  • I want to stop taking medications – Every morning, one of the first thing I do is take a medication which aims at protecting my stomach from the anti-inflammatory medication I take twice a day. It saddens me that the first thing I put in my body every morning is a drug. My body deserves better than this. I understand that is necessary at this time, but I want to eventually be able to stop both of these medications.
  • I want to be pain free – I dread having to run errands as it is laborious and painful. I want to be able to do this effortlessly.
  • I want to enjoy walks pain free – One of my husband’s favourite things is walking. Being blind, he needs others to go on walk with him. I would love to be able to enjoy going for long pain free walk with him.
  • I want to be fearless about going into unknown experiences and environments – Because of my size and physical limitations, I shy away from new environments and experiences. Will I fit in the seat at the restaurant? Will I be stuck having to stand for a long period of time? Will I stick out like a sore thumb? Will I make a fool of myself? This has shrank my world tremendously. I want to find my way back to experiencing the world around me more.
  • I want to be thin before I die and have time to enjoy my thin body.
  • I want to fully and completely let go of my struggle with food addiction – It is like there are two person within myself: the compulsive eater and the healthy eater. There’s a constant struggle as to which personality will take over. This is very stressful in so many ways. I want this split within myself to find healing.
  • I want to choose the way I get to dress myself – Where I live, clothing options for a woman my size is almost non existent. So I have to wear what I can find, not the style I would prefer. Consequently, in all of my closet, I have not one piece of clothing that brings me joy.I want to dress in the type of clothes that brings me joy.
  • I want to be able to sit on the floor comfortable – One of the things that really saddens me is that, when my little niece comes to visit, I can’t sit on the floor and play with her. Children love it when you get to their level. I want that.
  • I want to spend more time in nature – I live in the city and do not own a car by choice, so going into natural settings require being able to walk long distance. I miss nature and want more of it in my life.
  • I want to keep being present to my life and to myself, to live every moment. the love. the joy. the pain. everything!

I have many more wants but these are the ones that need expressing at this time. These are the ones that I need to acknowledge for myself. These are the ones that I need to dust off and air out in the open. For a while, I had lost hope. I really thought that I was powerless to change my destructive behaviours. I truly, truly felt powerless and in some way, I had given up. Taking a step in the unknown and retiring early from my work has sort of reset things for me. I find myself being hopeful again and I’m so grateful. So grateful!

27 Replies to “A Wish List to the Universe”

  1. Dear Ginette,
    I have a list somewhat like this. The issues are somewhat different but I see a lot of commonality. More nature, less pain, no meds, ridding myself of helplessness to name just a few. Thank you for putting your list out to the Universe. May we float them together!

    • Kathie, YES, let’s float our lists together and remind each other that we are worth it, that we are deserving and that you are powerful beyond measure!

  2. I totally feel you on the medication. I have a medicine cabnet full. My firsf pill i taje is for my thyroid. Second is for my anxiety. Third is tylonal. Fourth is asthma inhailer. 5th is sinus med. Its a never ending cycle here for me each day too.

  3. I can relate to so many of those thoughts. I am on a weight loss attempt at the moment and being the most consistent I have been with anything like that for years, if not a decade or more.

  4. I am in awe of the courage it took to share these deeply vulnerable wishes. I stand with you and all of the others in sending them out to be returned as truth.

    The most powerful lesson I’ve learned in making change is the power of beginning again. And again. And again. Every time I fall, I get up and begin…again.

  5. How wonderful that you are clearly and deeply desiring what brings you joy. This is half the battle!
    I can see you embracing a gentle regime of change, eating mindfully, moving thoughtfully, meditating happily and transforming imperceptibly. I see this for you. May I gift you my vision and my belief that this is your future.

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